Monday, December 31, 2012

12 Best Outfits of 2012

Honestly, I wasn't going to do a best outfits of 2012 post because I assumed I hadn't blogged that many outfits, I mean I broke my leg in January and wasn't really up and about for almost half a year, but looking through I couldn't resist showing off some of the huge changes I've made this year.

I'm doing a top 12 instead of one a month due to not dressing up during the first half of year what with the broken leg.

Remember when I was platinum blonde? Me neither!

Oh wow, blast from the past. I wore this a day or two before I broke my leg. Looking back I realise that this is the year that I learnt I can wear dresses and skirts. Being unable to pull on my skinny jeans over my cast made me face up to my fear of skirts and dresses. I've always aspired to be a strong person, in 2012 I realised you can be just as strong in frills and pearls as in jeans and boots.

Heck you can mix both together. This was the year of rejecting my internalised femmephobia.

Another first, wearing a body con skirt. Couldn't resist this picture, even though I have others through the link of vbo!

2012, the year I learnt that plus size people can find awesome items in charity shops! Love this leather skirt I picked up. Also the start of my dark lipstick addiction.

Its weird, this outfit would normally be so out of my comfort zone! I mean its a dress, a sleeveless sun dress at that add the fact there is no black in this outfit, but I adore it. Its amazing how testing your boundaries can show you whole new aspects of yourself. Just because I'm in a sundress and lace doesn't mean I don't kick ass. If I feel like dressing girly it doesn't make me weak, you can use femininity and use it in a plethora of ways. I can wear a sundress with creepers and unshaved legs, if that's what I want.

2012, fashion became freedom.

Monochrome and creepers have been my signature this year, I think!

While I did not wear this outfit with some of my midriff showing out and about, I think I felt brave enough just putting this on the internet.

My birthday outfit has a special place in my heart. This was the start of letting myself back into all black. On finding fatshion I rejected a lot of the things society tells fat girls to wear, including black. But, you know what? I love wearing black, this year I learnt as long as I'm happy with it I can wear whatever I like.

My first experimental post using a "how to" style. While I hate the kind of "you should do this" lists I might do more of these posts framed from my point of view, so its how I do it, not necessarily how you should. If that makes any sense!

Love this outfit! At the end of 2012 I think I finally got a better handle on my personal style, that I love femme, but I love femme with an edge with a little rock thrown in for good measure. I think I realised that just because I am 22 doesn't mean I have to put away the goth/emo/punk 15 year old in my heart.

2012 has also been the year I finally got my hands on some amazing plus size clothing from Domino Dollhouse who I think produce some of the coolest and most on trend plus size clothes in the market place. They really evoke that edgy femininity that I've fallen in love with.

I posted this just a few days ago, but I don't care! This is my all time favourite outfit on this blog. I finally got my style down on camera. A few years I would have laughed if you said I could even buy these clothes in my size and now I can and I have the confidence to wear them!

2012 hasn't been half bad, I'd say. ;)

Day 9: Punk Rock's In The Ink That's In My Skin

How fortuitous that this landed on New Year's Eve!

Tonight I shall be dancing my socks off at a Frank Turner gig.

Day 9 ~ A Song That You Can Dance To:

Back in the Day ~ Frank Turner

Sunday, December 30, 2012

OotD: Dirty Little Freaks

Dogtooth Peplum Skirt ~ ASOS Curve
Ripped Black Top ~ eBay
Leather Look Biker Vest ~ New Look Inspire
Leggings ~ New Look Inspire
Creepers ~ Underground
Whistle Necklace ~ Vivienne Westwood
Lipstick ~ Kontrol by Illamasqua

This outfit was a brought together in a 20 minute dash before heading off to Sheffield for some shopping with my mother. If I had time to think I doubt I would have gabbed this top and skirt because I've been having difficulties knowing what to put with them. I love both of them, but I've yet to wear either piece.

I'm really happy with this outfit, I think it reflects my personal style very well.

 I've seen this skirt on quite a few plus size blogs, it can be dressed up in a thousand ways, but none of them felt very me. I've seen it with pussybow shirts, blouses, very ladylike and classy, so not me! Haha.

I went edgy with a little goth and punk mixed in. I think purple/dark coloured lipstick has become my go to lip colour. Also, might take more photos out in the woods, I like the backdrop of dead leaves.

Wish my hair was bigger, the higher the hair, the closer to God, as they say. Also, this is after I had my hair dyed a little more orange, I'll be slowly going more bright over 2013.

Love this necklace, it actually works as a whistle! :)

Do you have any items of clothing you love, but find hard to style?

Day 8: What If?

This one was difficult I know too many awesome songs off by heart. So this is my most played song on itunes.

Day 8 ~ A Song You Know All The Words To:

What If ~ Emilie Autumn

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Day 7: Build A Rocket Boys

Christmas feels so long ago, I am really ready for New Year's Eve. I'll be spending it at a Frank Turner gig. Rock on!

Day 7 ~ A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event:

Lippy Kids ~ Elbow

In 2011 I went to Leeds Festival, I was supposed to go with a friend, but she backed out. I am a very anxious person and I was terrified of going on my own. I always think when I do something alone that everyone is looking at me, judging me on being a friendless loser, but this whole magical weekend changed my mind. I had a fantastic time, didn't have to drink to enjoy myself, I just listened to amazing music and found some truly amazing talents in the comedy tent. I found that I had possibly an even better time than if I had gone with someone. I learned to appreciate my own company.

Elbow played this song, it was not long after the riots in Manchester last year and Guy Garvey spoke with great eloquence about this awful event. This will stick with me for a long time to come.

Friday, December 28, 2012

What a Lucky Holiday Haul!

[From left to right: McQ for Alexander McQueen Stepney Tote Bag, Vivienne Westwood Chancery Bag, Vivienne Westwood Whistle Necklace, Ciate Mini Mani Advent Calendar, Geek Chic Cosmetics Haul]

As you can, I have been very, very lucky this Christmas.

Not shown is a matching top and skirt that my mother bought me from a local shop. I'm sure they'll turn up in an outfit soon.

If I had to choose one designer house that I consistently love it will always end up with my mind splitting directly in two because who could choose between Alexander McQueen and Vivienne Westwood?

Thankfully, my mother knows my weakness, so when she dropped my brother off to work in Sheffield and saw a really good designer sale, she decided that she and I should go check it out the next day. This ended up with me getting this gorgeous McQ tote bag and a Vivienne Westwood bag that is technically half the price it was because my mother and I will be sharing it. Gotta love shopper's logic. ;)

Honestly, I've always loved fashion, but I never thought I would own anything designer. In recent years I've inherited a Mulberry bag from my mother and have an Alexander McQueen scarf from eBay that for I know could be a fake. But this bag, I am just so in love. Its gorgeous soft leather and big enough for all the crap I carry. Might add pictures of the inside as its an interesting print.

I really adore this razor label, which you can push back inot the fob in case you don't want to show it. I've always been wearing this Viv necklace a lot, its actually quite a loud working whistle and it has an orb on the front clasp. I've also used it doubled up as a bracelet.

This is technically a present fom myself and a sneak peek at what I will hopefully be swatching and reviewing over the weekend.

I ordered the Superneutrals (based on the tv show Supernatural), Win or Die (based on A Song of Ice and Fire books/Game of Thrones tv show), a sample of We Are Coming (Dr. Who) and 2 solid perfumes based on Harley Quinn and Pyramid Head.

Oh and you can see the candy cane that came as well as a free eyeshadow sample.

I also bought the ciate mini mani advent calendar, one for myself and another for my friend. I am really impressed with the range of colours in this set and I'll be blogging all the colours and eventually all swatches too.

How was your Christmas, everyone get something nice?

Day 6: Welsh Hills are Full of Hobbits

My mother's side of the family is Welsh, we have a house out there. My childhood is summer's in rural Wales, running around in the wilds, going on walks and hikes through hills and mountains. Watching The Lord of the Rings, I was transported there. I would love to go to New Zealand and get the authentic feel of these films, but for now I visit North Wales and see such small Hobbits on a very big adventure.

Day 6: A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere:

Many Meetings ~ The Lord of The Rings Soundtrack

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Day 5: Do You Cry Out In Your Sleep All My Failings Exposed?

Expect some pictures of my trip to Sheffield today and the utterly awesome Christmas presents I got there. Plus a Geek Chic Cosmetics haul and swatch-fest.

Day 5 ~ A Song That Reminds You Of Someone:

Love Will Tear Us Apart ~ Joy Division

First crush, I will always remember you. ;P

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Day 4: A Song That Makes You Sad & 100th Post!

Sarah from The Ridculous Sort reminded me that I never linked to the challenge I am doing, so here it is!

I wish this post was better as it my 100th post, but I am turkey tired. Also Christmas and Boxing Day take it right out of me. I cannot handle this much activity and being out of my comfort zone in a bad way with my family. I'm relieved its all over.

Back to normal from now on. :)

Day 4 ~ A Song That Makes You Sad:

My Body is a Cage ~ Arcade Fire

If I want to mope I have a whole playlist called Misery, this is a top sulky, sad tune.

Monday, December 24, 2012

Be Safe This Christmas.

Pulled this from Rachel's blog A Dress is for Life.

Kellie of Big Fatshionista put a list of crisis hotlines on her blog and encouraged others to do the same.

Christmas can be a very hard time of the year. Depression, anxiety, family problems and alcoholics family members can make Christmas hard for me personally and I know there are many of you out their with similar problems. I just want everyone to be safe this Christmas, so if you feel in danger in anyway or just need to vent, please call one of these numbers below.


0300 123 3393


08457 90 90 90

Alcoholics Anonymous

0845 769 7555
(As a child of alcoholics and someone who knows many people who have gone through addiction with and without AA I cannot promote them here. I believe they are more harm than help. Below are alternatives.)

National Alcohol Hotline

0800 917 8282

NACOA (National Association for Children of Alcoholics)

0800 358 3456


Info line 08000 50 20 20

London Lesbian and Gay Switchboard

0207 837 7324

0845 767 8000

Preventing young suicide

0800 068 4141

For people in Northern Ireland

0808 808 8000


0800 1111



0808 2000 247

Eating Disorders Association

0845 634 1414


0808 800 4444

NHS Direct

0845 4647

No Panic

0808 808 0545

Cruse Bereavement Care

Child Death Hepline

0800 282 986

Hearing Voices Network

  0114 271 8210

Age UK Advice Line
0800 169 6565

 National Self Harm Network

0800 622 6000

Talk To Frank (Drug information & advice)

 0800 77 66 00

Rape and Abuse Line
0808 8000 123 (Answered by Female Support Workers) 
0808 8000 122 (Answered by Male Support Workers)

SupportLine Telephone Helpline
01708 765200

(Confidential emotional support for Children, Young People and Adults. Also keeps details of agencies, support groups and counsellors throughout the UK)

I've added a few for more specific problems

If you need someone, please call one of these numbers. You are NOT alone over Christmas, there are people out there that care, I care.

Day 2: Your Least Favourite Song

This is going to be controversial.

Day 2: Your Least Favourite Song

The End by The Doors

Though to be honest I could stick a lot of Christmas songs in this category too. I am a grinch.

In general, I dislike The Doors, in fact, I completely do not understand the cult following surrounding Jim Morrison. Each to their own, but I don't understand it.

This song actually fills me with anxiety, I had a hard time finding the original version because it affects me so badly. I do not why, its just makes my skin crawl.

I watched The Doors film by Oliver Stone a while ago with some friends (only because Val Kilmer was in it) and its a great film, but made me dislike Jim Morrison even more.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

30 Songs in 30 Days! Day 1: Your Favourite Song

I tend not to post as much in the winter because I am terrible at getting pictures before it gets dark, so I thought I'd so a 30 days challenge over Christmas and the new year. I am a huge music fan, so this seemed a natural next step.

Day One ~ My Favourite Song:

Balthazar, Impresario by Frank Turner

A bonus song on Frank's England Keep My Bones album that nearly didn't make it on to the final cut. I love a song from the point of view of a character and Frank really breathes life into this fading music hall star. You really feel his sorrow and passion, it makes me cry nearly every damn time. Please give it a good listen.


My name is Balthazar, Impresario
And you'll find me at the bottom of the page
I have artist's hands, though I'm a working man
But my craft has been forgotten by the age
So tonight will be my last night on the stage

This is my family's trade, my father built this place
At the turning of the twentieth century
I have been working here, for some fifty years
But the young these days are glued to TV screens
And the old girl is dying on her feet

Once more to the boards
One more curtain call
Give the crowd everything they're asking for and more
Always make them laugh
Try to make them cry
Always take the stage like it's the last night of your life

My friends from theatre school all thought I was a fool
For leaving Shakespeare for the music hall
And now my son's left home, and set out on his own
And the critics think we're quaint but set to fall
But they've only seen the show from the stalls

Once more to the boards
One more curtain call
Give the crowd everything they're asking for and more
Always make them laugh
Try to make them cry
Always take the stage like it's the last night of your life

And all the things I've seen behind these tattered seams
And all the upturned faces with the lamplight in their eyes
And each imperfect turn flickers as it burns
Only lasts a moment but for me they'll never die

We are respected
We're not remembered
We are the ghosts of Vaudeville

We are the fathers of the halls
Yeah but we'll never be famous
We aren't just artists, we are something more:
We're entertainers

I smooth my thinning hair in a gilded mirror
To try to hide the tell-signs of my age
My name is Balthazar, Impresario
And tonight will be my last night on the stage.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

If you really knew me.....

Stole this from idea from Natalie from XL as Life. As I've been having trouble coming up with blog ideas in recent weeks.

You'd know I'm a natural blonde who wants to be anything but. You'd know that I feel at odds with the blonde stereotype, you'd know that I am shy and awkward, dry and a little dark, not bubbly and sweet.

You'd know I do not suit black hair despite my best wishes, but I have had platinum, green, blue, brown, black and several types of red hair. You'd know I want to go orange-red next and I am trying to grow my hair out as long as it will go.

You'd know that the above is the shortest and lightest my hair has been. You'd know I cut it after my grandparents died, that I cut it when I realised I wasn't in the right place for me. You'd know that I didn't realise it at the time and that I have a fascination with women's relationship with their hair, that they often change things up during emotional distress.

You'd also know that if you ask me to make a derpy face, I will do it and hopefully an epic silly face competetition will arise! You'd know a few years ago I would never show a picture where I didn't look my "best".

You'd know that I only started wearing make-up two years ago and that before that I wore a fat girl uniform of oversized, ugly clothes from head to toe. You'd know that blogs and fatshion icons, like Beth Ditto made me realise I could wear the clothes I liked without having to lose weight.

You'd know that I was a typical 'emo' teenager, that I was in love with My Chemical Romance, wore all black and had a side swept fring and constant scowl. You'd know that it was at this point I began self harming and that I'm still in recovery from this.

You'd know that I was into these things because of my less than perfect home life. You'd know that both my parents are alcoholics, my mother has been sober for 4 years now, but my dad still drinks. You'd know depression and anxiety runs in my family and that I've been diagnosed with bipolar II. You'd know I've been on medication for 3 years and I'm doing a lot better these days.

You'd know that my favourite holiday was a school trip to Greece. You'd know this picture is me channeling Clytemnestra welcoming Agammenon home. You'd know I love greek myths and history.

You'd know I love to read, but sometimes I go for long stretches without picking up a book because I feel guilty that I'm not doing something "constructive".

You'd know that the above pictures, of a view from the hotel in Delphi, my friend and I in a Stratford grove and another friend and I during our Sixth Form prom, are my favourite pictures that include myself. You'd know they are beautiful memories for me.

You'd know I love tea and coffee and that I have a collection of cups that are my cups put aside specifically for these drinks. You'd know that I drink at least 1 cup of coffee a day and about 4-6 cups of tea.

You'd know that it has taken me years to get to grips with my sexuality and gender identity for many reasons. You'd know that I'm only "out" to only two people in real life, my best friend and one of my brothers. You'd know I'm pansexual. I am fiercely in favour of quiltbag (lgbt) rights.

You'd know my brother got me into My Little Pony, we always watch it together and Pinkie pie is my favourite, so I told people my nail varnish above was in her colours. Well Pinkie Pie's colours are also the pansexual flag. :)

What would I know about you?

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Competition Entry: A Festive Window For Next

Jess, over at Feeling Stylish, is having an interesting competition here where all you need to do is dress your own Next Christmas shop window, fun right? And the best part the winner gets a £500 Next gift card!

The competition closes on the 21st December and winners will be announced in the new year.

Here is my entry.

I wanted my festive window to reflect some big trends for this winter, which are oxblood, studs, metallics, as well as general festive glitz and glamour. I think all of these pieces are perfect for making your home Christmas ready and the dresses wouldn't be out of place at any fancy do this winter.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

OotD: Intergalactic Nun

Peter Pan Collar Tunic ~ Next via eBay
Skater Skirt ~ ASOS Curve
Galaxy Leggings ~ ASOS
'Iva' Brass Cross Necklace ~ Rock 'N Rose
Boots ~ Dr Martens with dalek laces from Dr. Who magazine
Owl Hoop Earrings ~ Cath Kidston

Sorry I look so tired, I'd been in college all day and it really takes it out of me! Plus I woke up late, so didn't get time to even put a scrap of make-up on.

I'll be honest, my brother took these pictures of me, probably a month (or two) ago! I kinda forgot about them. Ooops.

But, I clearly remember getting this outfit together, looking at myself and thnking "Why am I dressed like an Intergalatic Nun?" My answer now is "Why the hell not?!"

I am obsessed with these leggings, they are beautiful and 18s from the straight size legging section of ASOS, always a great place to look as leggings stretch so much.

I have to do another outfit with a shorter skirt or shorts because the pattern changes at the top and it is really beautiful.

I actually got this necklace free with an order from Rock N Rose. I ordered the blog famous Kora necklace and got the Iva free and honestly I was super dissapointed in the Kora and in love with the freebie.

I might post pictures of the Kora close up to show its deficits, but in short, it looks very cheap and more like platic than metal.

I am not usually a belt wearer, but this one came withe the skirt. I've bought ASOS belts on their own, but they never fit! Anyone else have this problem?

Friday, December 14, 2012

Daily Wishlist 7: Beauty at John Lewis

*Indicates the price has been reduced 10% today only.

If I could only pick one item? What I really need is a decent base coat, what I really want? That Vivienne Westwood gift set, I adore this scent and the lotion and set looks gorgeous.

Aparently, when it comes to beauty products I have expensive tastes!

If money was no object, what would be your dream beauty buy?

OotD: Everyone I See Just Wants To Walk With Gritted Teeth

Faux Fur Coat ~ Marks & Spencers
White T-Shirt ~ Dorothy Perkins
Grey & Black Striped Jeans ~ Dorothy Perkins
Black Hi-Top Wedges ~ Dorothy Perkins
Spiked Headband ~ Domino Dollhouse
Cross Earrings ~ ASOS
Cross Necklace ~ Rock N Rose
Lipstick ~ Beauty UK in Vampire

Sorry about the quality of these pictures. Winter is kicking my ass as far as taking pictures is going and my mother was freezing as we took these pictures!

Two new pieces I bought in the Dorothy Perkins sale, the jeans and the shoes. Two items I've wanted for what feels like years, striped jeans and wedge hi-tops, so when I came upon them in Dorothy Perkins I had to click buy.

I noticed now that I haven't posted an outfit with trousers since September! To be honest, I fell out of love with jeans and pants completely. I gained a little weight I think so the ones I had were tight, skirts fit better & felt more dressy so more worthy of being blogged about.

But if any jeans are blog worthy, these are it! They're super soft, lightweight, but not cold and I think I could've sized down, but they were out of stock. I've dreamed of those Motel jeans above and there hasn't been anything quite as close in any plus size store before now. (Except Domino Dollhouse leggings.)

Its officially cold enough for fur! Or at least faux fur. 

My eyebrows do not look this red in person, I promise! I think the light just washed them out. I love winter fashion, but winter blogging is so much harder and I haven't adjusted yet.

Wanted to put a picture up of my eye make-up but the light was against me. I've found my perfect red lipstick and I wanted to show off my well done cat eyeliner, but alas it didn't show up.

How are you adusting to the new season?

Jake Bugg ~ Lightning Bolt

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Daily Wishlist 6: Evans

Thought I'd do something a little different with today's wishlist (One more day left, then back to normally scheduled activity!) and choose 3 pieces of outwear and style them for 3 different events.

Outfit 1: Day to Evening 

Leave the blazer at the office and put on the biker jacket for after work drinks.

Outfit 2: New Year's Eve Party

This is the ultimate party dress and if there is any day to push the boat out its New Year's Eve.

Outfit 3:Christmas Shopping

The aim of any shopping outfit is ease, warmth and comfort, which I think you'll find in these boots and furs.

If I could only pick one item? It has to be that gatsby dress, I mean look at it! I have no idea where I'd wear it, but I'm sure wherever I went would feel magical.